Seasons May Change, But God is Forever the Same
When I first moved to Montana, I thought I would be spending the rest of my life here. A short time and whatever desire I had to ever move back to California...gone. It felt like home....almost immediately.
Hindsight is always 20/20. Looking back at the past year and a half (seems like three) I saw a chain of events that told me something was up. "God is up to something" is what I kept telling myself early on. Landing (and then losing) my first job, my first ...and second staph infection, not being able to find another job, the ups and downs with the house I currently live in. When mom called me one afternoon and told me they were moving me back to Cali, I bawled... for three days. I still LOVED Montana. I still saw myself living the rest of my life here. I thought I was nearing my dream.
Five months prior to all this I was at a rally where we had a speaker and three or so bands that played their music. One of them really stuck out to me; Richard Andrew Experiment. I immediately added him to MySpace. A few months later and he has a Facebook page...added him there too. One afternoon listening to his music and I had to ask myself "WHY do I like his music so much. SOMETHING kept me coming back to it. Then this moving back to California came up---and his music is hitting me A LOT differently. I just happened to see on his FB page he posted a video of him singing a song he wrote at his church, a song called 'None Compares'. It had me resting my head against my computer keyboard, bawling. I came across his YouTube page where he had posted others and came aross 'Fall Apart'. Uh-oh, here we go again! I don't know why exactly (must have been a God thing), but I shared with him my frustration.
Now, I have kept the notiication of his note on my FB wall for some time now, and read his note often. Just a week or so ago I read it and the word 'peace' stuck out to me. God seemed to be telling me it was time to pray for peace regarding my move. Peace, I didn't want it, I was afraid to pray for it for fear it was a "giving in" to my moving back. It took me day and a half. The crazy thing was, once I did I immediately felt it. Whoa! THAT was fast! Where there was once fear, there is now excitement! I am listening to RA's music he gave me when we first met and even THOSE are messing with me :D,
Unchanged - "Your situation has changed, but I(God) have not, My plans for you have not"
New Song - God's challenge to me in the midst of difficult circumstances
The rest of them, lines stuck out to me -
Give Your Life to Jesus - "Hopes, dreams, fears, anxieties, frustrations"
Love All Over the World - " No one understands the path that led me, to losing everything that I held dear, and after watching it all disappear, He's beckoning me near..."
Enough is Enough - "I'm just looking for peace that I don't understand....." Funny how earlier the word 'peace' in his note really hit me.
Chief - Like 'Give Your Life to Jesus', this one just grew on me. lol!
Jeremiah 29:11 - For I know the plans I have for you declares the Lord, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, to give you hope and a future.
Hindsight is always 20/20. Looking back at the past year and a half (seems like three) I saw a chain of events that told me something was up. "God is up to something" is what I kept telling myself early on. Landing (and then losing) my first job, my first ...and second staph infection, not being able to find another job, the ups and downs with the house I currently live in. When mom called me one afternoon and told me they were moving me back to Cali, I bawled... for three days. I still LOVED Montana. I still saw myself living the rest of my life here. I thought I was nearing my dream.
Five months prior to all this I was at a rally where we had a speaker and three or so bands that played their music. One of them really stuck out to me; Richard Andrew Experiment. I immediately added him to MySpace. A few months later and he has a Facebook page...added him there too. One afternoon listening to his music and I had to ask myself "WHY do I like his music so much. SOMETHING kept me coming back to it. Then this moving back to California came up---and his music is hitting me A LOT differently. I just happened to see on his FB page he posted a video of him singing a song he wrote at his church, a song called 'None Compares'. It had me resting my head against my computer keyboard, bawling. I came across his YouTube page where he had posted others and came aross 'Fall Apart'. Uh-oh, here we go again! I don't know why exactly (must have been a God thing), but I shared with him my frustration.
Now, I have kept the notiication of his note on my FB wall for some time now, and read his note often. Just a week or so ago I read it and the word 'peace' stuck out to me. God seemed to be telling me it was time to pray for peace regarding my move. Peace, I didn't want it, I was afraid to pray for it for fear it was a "giving in" to my moving back. It took me day and a half. The crazy thing was, once I did I immediately felt it. Whoa! THAT was fast! Where there was once fear, there is now excitement! I am listening to RA's music he gave me when we first met and even THOSE are messing with me :D,
Unchanged - "Your situation has changed, but I(God) have not, My plans for you have not"
New Song - God's challenge to me in the midst of difficult circumstances
The rest of them, lines stuck out to me -
Give Your Life to Jesus - "Hopes, dreams, fears, anxieties, frustrations"
Love All Over the World - " No one understands the path that led me, to losing everything that I held dear, and after watching it all disappear, He's beckoning me near..."
Enough is Enough - "I'm just looking for peace that I don't understand....." Funny how earlier the word 'peace' in his note really hit me.
Chief - Like 'Give Your Life to Jesus', this one just grew on me. lol!
Jeremiah 29:11 - For I know the plans I have for you declares the Lord, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, to give you hope and a future.
posted by XAgirl @ 3:09 PM
1 Comments:
At 1:25 AM,
Shea and Robyn said…
You are a sweetie Tryna. You make so many of us seem so incompetent the way your heart and mind just flow endlessly. You are incredibly smart girl, and you'll adapt smoothly to whatever environment you are in. You've been good at that so far! Don't underestimate yourself. :)
If there's a will, there's a way. ~
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