Thoughts on Future Employment

It's supposed to be 106 degree's today, so I am relaxing in my room with the fan on full blast. I have done a lot of reading (a favorite past-time), and unfortunately a whole lot of nothing on the computer. Earlier in the day I decided to listen to a CD from Mark Drake. I think I listened to two. It was nice sitting back and doing nothing while listening, something I need to do more often (Usually I do two things at once).

Later in the day something that SB asked me in a conversation about work hit me and then I felt compelled to really sit down and do, seriously. Which made me think of a statement I heard on the radio yesterday. Something about how God knows what we want even before we ask, but yet still wants us to bring it to Him. I lay on my bed and really give to God what my ideal employment situation would be. I could say this situation with FCCC was the beginning since I really didn't give it much thought when I took the job in the first place.

What AM I looking for
Co-workers who are friendly toward me, supportive of me being there
accessible for a wheelchair AND service dog
driving distance/ later rather than earlier start time (getting up at 6:30a.m. for a 9:00a.m. start time is rough, but I got used to it)
Inclusive (teaching children with and without disabilities in the same classroom)
Here in Montana if that's where God still wants me
(I'm sure more stufff will come to me later)

This last one has been on my mind a lot this past week sicne being let go, and frankly, it kinda scares me. So far I have no desire to go anywhere else to look for work other than here in Missoula, Montana. I have a church here, I have friends here, doctors, a gym... The thought of starting all over, makes me want to throw-up. I am having a hard time telling God that I will go anywhere He wants me to.

I love Montana.

Two Sticks and Three Rocks

This is what I found when I cleaned out my backpack today. That'll teach me to leave my backpack open when I'm around the two-year-olds at recess.

Adventures in Preschool VII - God's Plans and Venting

Proverbs 16:9

In his heart a man plans his course, but the Lord determines his steps.

Okay, so nothing about venting in the Bible, but just bear with me for a minute.

So what is this? Two days in a row the Holy Spirit speaks to me about my life's direction (see myspace page abtou this post). He must be up to something. At least, after today, I hope He is. I had a great time with the kiddo's today. A few frustrating instances, but when you are around two through five-year-olds, it's to be expected. I think it was mostly the heat getting to me too.

Shortly after returning home from work, I received a phone call from J.O.B.S, Job Opportunity Based Services. My counselor from jobs called to tell me that my boss thinks I am doing an excellent job, yet there there were a few instances where I could have handled them much better than I did. I thought I handled them well myself, and one instance, I think the one he was talking about, I did NOT see the kid's bloody nose. In the classroom with the children I do a great job, but ut on the playground we have not just uor class but two s and three's. A KLOT of children to watch, andI think it gets a bit overwhelming for me. Especially when I see children doign things they are not supposed to and an adult is standing nearby not doing a freakin' thing. I end upo be ing the one racing across the playground to tell the child(ren) to stop.

So I received a call from mom and really, its not about the stuff on the playground, but that my co-workers were just not that supoortive of me being there. There are a lot of awesome things I do in the preschool, even my boss thinks so, but getting the others to see that...

So it's back to the job hunting again. It's a major bummer as I am going to miss all the children, especially a select fews that stole my heart.

Funny moment though, out on the playgroudn I had a prescholer come up to me and tell me"You know what, water makes your tongue sing!" LOL I love them!